Wednesday, March 31, 2010

::say t to the g::

thank you google.

for the creation of google map.

yeah.

today was fine.

the weather was damn hot.

i felt like wearing only a bikini if i could.

lol.

ok,ok,of course not.

kau gila.

tengah-tengah bandar kuantan.

bwahaha.

so,tadi.

after breakfast yang so-so,

balik naik bilik,

tidur,

bangun around 1 pm

and terus mempersiapkan diri

nak pergi berjaya mall.

nasiblah tepi hotel je.

takde yang menarik sangat pun di situ,

except kasut vincci yang murah.

ada 50% discount.

tapi malas nak beli.

so,bergerak lah ke east coast mall.

ok,

since i yang tak pasti jalan nak pergi ke east coast mall

to berjaya mall macam mana,

jadi tanya la ada seorang kakak ni.

dia kata jauh and dari isyarat tangan dia,

east coast mall menuju ke arah kanan.

so,

i decided nak jalan kaki sahaja.

dah biasa jalan kaki.

*kedekut tak mau naik teksi*

eh,jalan pun best ok.

since the past two days

asyik menggemukkan badan,

jadi nak la eksersais skit.

so,

i pun jalan la ikut direction kakak tu,

tapi to double confirm,

check la jugak guna map dekat phone.

nasib dia kata around 15 mins je.

so jalan punya jalan,

tengok-tengok,

tak payah nak corner banyak-banyak.

buat penat je i amik satu lap.

boleh straight je from berjaya megamall to

east coast mall.

tak jauh sangat pun.

dah la tengah berpanas-panas,

orang boleh kacau-kacau.

ikut dalam hati nak je i kacau die balik.

tapi sebab panas sangat,tak tahan

jadi niat nak kacau orang dilupakan.

east coast mall was better than berjaya mall.

tiada pic yang di snap hari ni.

sebab i tiada camera.

nak beli lomo,

masih belum berjaya kumpul duit.

jadi,

hamiklah.

tiada gambar.

pfffttt!!!!!!

esok nak balik kl.

yay!!!!!!!!

i found out,

i mesti tinggal kat tempat yang ada

1)shopping mall

2) awesome beach

kalau ada dua-dua,itu bonus.

kalau tak,ada salah satu pun ok.

kalau takde salah satu,

maaf.

jangan tanya kenapa i jadi gila nanti.

~toodles

Monday, March 29, 2010

::a mocha latte::


ok,dulu kurus sikit.tapi tatau la kenape gelap gile nih.

macam baru lepas buat kawad kaki.lol

semua pun muka innocent.

tomok pun belum dapat nama tomok lagi masa tu.

nama dia masih topek.

lepas jadi gemok,

terus jadi tomok=topek+gemok

lol.

nyetnyet pun da tak kurus sangat macam dulu-dulu.

abang long pakai contacts ok.siap set rambut.

cayalah.

lol.

::main tipu::

selalunya i main game tipah tertipu

dengan nyetnyte,yaya,scub,etc.

so,

dalam beberapa hari ini,

i try applied to real life

occasion

where tipah tertipu kena dijalankan.

so this is how it feel.

lol.

ok la jugak.

walaupun dalam hati macam membuak-buak nak bagitau

the truth.

tapi rasa macam

eh,eh,you jangan nak cari pasal

bagi tau perkara sebenar.

nanti susah.

susahkan diri you juga.

jadi,

you kena biasakan diri dengan tipah tertipu sekarang ni.

it's for your own good.

eche.ayat dia atas tue

i tak sure lah setan ke angel yang cakap.

hahahaha.

you know,

bila kita dah biasa jadi diri sendiri,

and for people like me,

i prefer to be straight forward,

jadi,

bila kena jadi the total opposite,

macam pelik.

susah ok!!!

sangat!!!

tapi,

i tried it for a few days,

ok lah kot.

dah boleh mula sesuaikan diri.

*heeeheeeheee*

and it felt good jugak lah weh.

ya la,,

bila kau tau yang kau tau

yang bende tu kau je yang tau.

macam awesome!!

it felt good to lie

err,

dalam erti kata yang lagi sopan,

berahsia.

but stil,

untuk orang yang betul-betul

i rasa i don't have to lie,

i don't.

other than that,

i had to live by the rules right.

just to keep the world at peace.

and sometimes,

i mean,

most of the time

i rasa macam nak vomit !!!

jangan tanya lah kenapa.

lol.

*disgusting kan perempuan ni.eeuuw.lol*

so,what say you,

redang anyone????????

::stop right now,thank you very much::

ok,the title above was taken from

spice girls' song->stop.

siap hafal ok,dance move diorg.lol

what i'm trying to say here is..

hurm

you know when they said,

never give up.

i would like to object your honor.

trying is yes,

a life time process.

but trying to hard on things

that you don't know the outcome

yet is something insane.

you must know when to stop.

it can be tiring enough to work something

out so hard

but the outcome still a so-so.

so,

work out on something else.

something worth.

other than that,

just stop.

like me.

out of the system.

forever.

~toodles

;)

::i'm not in wonderland::

yeah.

tue la kan.

orang kate,

be careful of what you wish for.

i wish to have my runaway vacation

to REDANG OK!!

instead

pergi kuantan.

eh,

itu esok baru dapat pergi kuantan.

hari ni,

tidur satu malam

dekat temerloh.

my dad siap insist nak guna

map dia yang zaman purbakala tu.

nasib anak dia maju sikit.

pakai google map.

*tapi tak pandai pun tengok map.demmit*

so,

thank God,

we manage to find our way to temerloh.

tak susah pun.

highway je.

saje nak kasi suspens.

lol.

so,

for you outhere yang saje nak rasa

ape ada dekat temerloh,

atau kena oustation,

the best hotel here maybe la kan.

maybe..

1)seri malaysia

2)greenpark hotel

3)hotel jelai
-nampak macam best sebab dia kata ada dvd player and free wifi.

ok,

jangan nak harap lebih-lebih.

mane ade resort bagai semua tu.

lempang karang.

ini temerloh.

sungai ada..

negeri ikan patin.

jadi,

i tak sabar nak ke kuantan esok.

will be there till khamis.

boleh melawat east coast mall lagi.

lol.

ok jugak.

toodles~



tapi,

semua kedai tutup paling lewat pukul 8.

ingat tue..

Sunday, March 28, 2010

::alice in wonderland::

jangan lah tanya i dah tengok ke belum.

BELUM ok!!!!

dulu nak pegi tengok,

busy kerja.

now,

nak tengok,

semua dah tengok..

-_-"

hokei hokei.

macam nak pergi berenang

di tepian pantai..

nak pantai yang pasirnya putih

lembut,

halus,mulus.

eh,

lapar la pulak.

ok,bye

my mum masak asam pedas hari ni.

sila terliur sekarang ;D

~toodles

::windy wendy::

esok macam nak pergi jog.

kalau rajin.

hahaha.

i don't know why,

i hate when people ask me questions.

because when i felt like they don't deserve to know

anything.

means,

they don't.

that's it.

i only share my thoughts with people

whom i want to share.

whom i felt close to.

not just anybody.

~;)

::sparkles::

i'm extremely happy hari ni.

not because of hati bunga-bunga

tahi ayam dan sebagainya.

tapi sebab i dah buat disk clean up dekat laptop.

homaigod!

best gile!!

rasa macam ringan..........!!!!

lepas tue macam berada di awangan.

at some point,

i felt like i'm dying..

hahahaha.

ok,ok,that's totally lame.

tidak bersangkut paut.

i finally

dapat reduce

ke-chicken-an diri

and i did

what i think was right.

jadi i delete

SEMUA

yang i rasa

i tak perlukan lagi.

i selalu ingatkan pada diri,

let it be in my head only.

the documents,the pictures,

format balik thumbdrive.

fuh.

sangat best.

rasa lega.

i buat satu list

semua yang i kena keluarkan dari system hidup i.

and yeah.

i dah buang semua.

and God,

i felt awesome!!!!

rasa beban atas kepala

dah tak ada.

so,for you guys out there,

it's never to late to try ok.

look at me.

it took me how many years to rget to this point.

to stop being a chicken for once

and finally do

what i supposed at the first place.

rasa macam ada satu strength.

memang tak banyak pun strength tue.

tak boleh pun nak tarik kapal terbang guna gigi.

lol.

~=)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

::kayu pengukur::

rimas.

bila kau nak buat apape,

orang lain letak kayu pengukur.

kalau kau bukan seperti yang macam dia ukur,

jadi,

kau tak layak nak buat.

-_-'

vavi.

dah.

i malas nak layan orang macam tu.

i could not find any word to describe.

sudah kehabisan kata-kata.

ok,

dari badan keluarkan toksin

sebab marah,

baik i buat benda-benda yang buat i happy

~_~

::this is it yaw::

ok,

rindu la pulak dekat cotton candy.

ok,

rindu.

ok,

rindu.

macam nak masukkan dia dalam bekas kaca,

dan tengok dia dari luar.

sebab dia macam fragile.

eh,

itu cintakah??

bukan kan..

sebab awalnye.........

x lah.......

kan?

i feel like protecting him from all the harm.

tapi itu tak bermaksud i cintakan dia..

kan?

kan?

ke?

::just just justin::

saje je.

letak nama justin sebab suka.

tapi post ni pasal

singapore.

sebab i suka sangat dengan singapore.

awesome!!!!!!!

jum pergi senigapore minggu depan.

hahahahaha.

eh,pergi redang lah.

ee,

hormon gatal tengah naik.

nak tengok beach boys la pulak.

wajib pergi redang tiap-tiap tahun.

hoyeh!!!

kali ni nak pergi sorang lah.

nak tgk,

ade bran ka tade bran.

eche.

yek yek je.

chicken,

u want to go or not???

i dare you chicken!!!

::magic::

lying is like flying.

it makes you feel so gooood.

and addicted at the same time.

*grinning*

super awesome!;D

::cry me a river::

you still didn't see it,don't you.

listen with your heart.

not what your ears want you to hear.

::cocopuff::

only one thing to do.

tapi nanti kena edit semua bagai.

heh.

nothing is impossible to a willing mind.

ingat to c.

"NOTHING".

this is zero gravity zone.

so,

mesti mesti mesti!!!!

minggu depan free pergi tanye!!!

ok,ok,

call dulu.

baru tanya.

mintak-mintak lah boleh.

kan kan kan ;D

oh,

today is the day,

this is it.

::freedom::

FREEDOM

IS

WHEN

WE

HAVE

NOTHING

TO

LOSE.

-cutesy-;P

why it didn't leave anything::

first dare.

~done.

-and this time,i'm bringing it on-

::riverside:::

ok,

tajuk memang tiada kena mengena dengan post.

lol.

you know,

i ni adalah seorang yang

warm warm chicken shit jugak lah.

*hangat hangat tahi ayam*

dulu,

bukan main eksaited habis.

semangat mengalahkan

pelumba f1.

sanggup buat apa saja.

now,

keffi dah hilang.

gone with the wind.

cepat bosan.

lol.

tak boleh harap betul.

lol.

uu,esok boleh layan csi ni!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hooray!!!

da la hari ni tidur je..

bangun,makan..tgk tv kejap tidur..

then bangun mandi,makan..

nasib lah tak tidur terus.

hahahahaha.

~toodles

::already gone::

tadi,

time i nak keluar dengan family i pergi dinner,

my ada ask me,

"eh,tudung mane."

i pun cakap,

"dah tak pakai."

"why?"

"sebab dah tak nak pakai."

i jawab straight,sharp dan dengan penuh confident.

my tudung already gone lah daddy.

i'm back as your wild child.

;p

belum lagi i kalerkan rambut warna purple macam dulu.

pengsan agaknye.

lol.

ok,ok,

that's totally a joke.

at this age,

biru la pulak.

bwahahaha.

tak la tak la..

entah.

nanti la pergi saloon.

huehue.

kereta pun nak kena pergi saloon.

kesian die.

rim bengkok,

tayar nak botak,

kotor lame tak basuh.

kesian kan.

esok i bawak you pergi saloon ya.

oh,

as usual,

kena lecture lagi dengan my dad,

tentang kerja.

homaigod.

i nak pergi redang asap.

eeish eeish..!!!

lari ke pulau jum!!

boring la kl.

i nak cuci mata tgk beach boys!!

::the lovely bones::

the plots are quite slow.

sebab banyak angle from the main character,

suzie salmon.

but the story is quite ok.

it should be sad,

tapi perasaan tu tak sampai sangat pada i.

mungkin sebab dah terlampau kenyang makan sandwich kat wondermilk.

honey mustard chicken.sedap oh!

*time lapar,semua sedapkan kan*

so,

jom pergi redang!!!!!

tak sabar nak jumpe ikan2!!!!!!

eee.....rindu!!

nak peluk-peluk ikan tu!!!

Friday, March 26, 2010

::dot dot::

eh,

you penah tak..

macam i yang bongek ni kan..

even kalau orang message i..

letak dot dot(..) tue kan..

i rasa macam best je.

haha..

sebab macam cara dia cakap dengan i

adalah sangat lembut..

dan baik..

sopan santun,

paling comel dimata ku,tiada ku sangka,

bola-bola api.

*hafal siot!*

homaigod!

hahaha.

ni namanya bukan cinta.

tapi gedik ayam ok.

tpai sebelum tue,

i nak jatuh cinta pada kerja yang sesuai.

mana ya..

ada kawan mak i ramalkan,

yang i akan kahwin dengan rakan sekerja i.

fuh,

ni yang tak sabar nak kerja ni.lol

mane tau dapat kawen dengan bos hensem.

baik budi bahasa.

adui,

cair mak tengok.lol

ee,hormon ape terlebih ni.

merepek betul.

hish.

ame nak maju.

lol

~layta

::people's tots ::

ade guru tak yang boleh

ajar i sejuta satu tipu muslihat.

tapi ,

nanti after one lie,

come the other,

and then the other,

until we lost track of time..

what did i lied on the first place.

and to whom actually.

lol.

so,what do you think?

ada orang cakap,

tipu tue takpe.

tak kisah.

yang penting trust.

so,

now,

trust and lies

stand on the same level.

the trust is as much as important as lies.

the lies is as much as important as trust.

lol.

macam pening kan.

tok guru mana i nak refer to get clearer picture?

ni nak tengok dari angle mane?

so,

is this mean,

that no matter what we do,

as long as trust is there,

then it's ok to lied.

eh,tak.

lying is a way of living when the trust is there.

kalau macam tue,

senang lah hidup i..

as long as there is trust.

no matter what i do,

"trust kan.."

now,

when the trust is applied,

then,nothing is impossible to a willing mind.

great!

then,we have nothing to lose.

we can have everything at any time we want!

how wonderful is that!!

ok,

it's going to be a great life!!!

what a blessful life!

::oh yesterday!::

so,

after sampai je ofis semalam,

terus jumpa hr and pulangkan softphone

and access card.

trainer i cool gile!

the coolest lah!

walau emo-emo jugak.lol

oleh sebab semalam last day,

jadi i macam happy gile,

bole borak-borak dengan another trainer

yang selama ni

tak bercakap pun..

haha.

tgk2,die pun orang melaka.

baguslah.

i ayer keroh,trainer i merlimau,

and trainer seorang lagi tu klebang.

geng sekampung!hahaha

acara akhir dipenuhi dengan sesi bergambar dan membahan trainer

tercapai cite-cite i dan yaya nak amik gamabr dengan trainer.

hahahaha.

trainer i ni super kewl sebab

time i nk pg sg,

die yang bagi green light suruh amek mc je..

kool sangat!

nanti gaji da masuk,

me and yaya nak belanje en comel ni.

ok,en comel da cakap nk keep in touch.

me and yaya da rancang nak kluar dengan die.

date bertiga je..

hahahahaha

xde la kan..

saje je..

seronok bahan orang yang pemalu nih.

kitorang memang bahan die kaw-kaw

sampai tersipu-sipu.

haha.

birthday en comel bulan 6.

jadi nanti nak ajak kawan-kawan sekelas hang out same2

and selebret besday en comel.

the rest of the day

adalah melepaking di wondermilk sama yaya and yoi.

then yoi belanje tgk cite the lovely bones.

huhuu.tenkiu yoi,sayang kamu!

then,

me and yaya cam biase menghabiskan sisa-sisa

waktu bersama

kat curve.

ye la..pas ni da jarang dapat jumpe

*isk..isk*

pasti rindu pillow talk .hahaha..

chacha pun da start keje,

huhu..i sorang je tade lagi.

heeeehee..

~toodles~

Thursday, March 25, 2010

::is it?omg!::

bangun hari ni..

lepas tue macam tak percaya

dengan mimpi malam tadi.

lol.

i know,mimpi mainan tidur.

tapi mimpi malam tadi nie..

i mimpikan orang tak patut dimimpikan.

*oi,oi perempuan,nak kena lempang ke???*

hish hish hish..tak boleh..

tak boleh..tak boleh..

hak orang tu..haram.

bawak mengucap.

ok,

next thing is.

eh,

i bangun and on je facebook,

terus nampak redang pelangi ada job.

1)jadi kitchen hand

2) snorkeling guide

ingat nak jadi snorkeling guide,

tapi dengan ikan pun masih takut-takut.

homaigod.

cane..

hahaha.

so,

i ask for the job to be kitchen hand instead.

tapi tak tau la lgi..

tanye je.

*c,you are definitely crazy!*

yeah,

i know,

mum and dad pasti mengamok!!!!!!!!!!

jadi,

kita patut lari!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

selamatkan diri!!

;P
:]
;>
;)
:D

::super power::

you know

when they said that

the one who care the less has the power.

i think,

i have the super power now.

lol.

up up and away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

::redang jom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!::

jadi,

oleh sebab dah resign.

bolehlah pack-pack barang lari dari rumah.kan.

eh, eh,tak tak..

boleh pergi redang.kan kan kan!!!!!

nogha,jum jum!!!

sebab i free,

tak pergi mana-mana pun.

;D

awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i can get a job kt redang.

lagi super duper awesome kan!!!

kan!! kan!!kan!!!

oh yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

beach boys,

here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eh eh,jap.

nampaknya..

nz has to be postponed kan.

xpe,xpe,

it is never too late.

never.

jadi,nz,you tunggu tahun depan.

i kumpul duit dulu ok.

dan berfoya-foya dulu.

lol

~toodles

::yeah yeah yeah!!!::

i'm super duper happy yesterday.

pergi kerja pun happy.

ceria bukan main.

huuuuuuuuuuhuuuuu..

i finally submit my resignation letter to my superior.

fuh,

ayat manis bukan main.

*copy paste je kot..lol*

i didn't tell my parents i was resigning actually.

so i told them i didnt get the job because i failed the exam.

but actually i passed the exam.

patut start kerja balik semalam.

tapi malas.

pakat dengan rakan-rakan balik awal.

so,

mestilah balik rumah,

kena marah kan.

sebab disyaki tidak competent menajalnkan tugas.

lol.

so buat la muka konon sedih..

fuh,

susah gila nak menipu time ni.

sebab nak tergelak je..

hahahahaha.

xpe.

biar nampak tak guna depan mak bapak.

tapi kat ofis mesti jaga reputasi.

jadi,resign pun tak malu.

sebab pass..

hahahaha.

*bongek kan*

main-main je..

*bluek bluek*

so here i am.

kena start from scratch again..

xpe la..

janji tak kena migrain malam-malam..

and time buat kerja tue i don't have to talk 24/7

or at least if i like what i do,

tak kesah..

tadi i cakap dengan trainer i,

i tak kesah pun pasal gaji,

nak potong,potong la..

die cakap

"oo..pasal gaji tak kesah.."

"pasal kena marah kesah.."

haha.bukan i kesah kena marah..

tapi i ni baran.

tak tahan sabar..

jadi,

takut mencemarkan nama company je karang..

hehe..

lagipun,nanti balik malam sorang-sorang..

takut la..

apa-apa jadi..takde sape pun ble tolong nanti.

heehehe.

so today,

had been a great day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hujan,

sejuk pulak tu..

pastu tadi kecik bagi tazkirah agama pulak ok..

hahaaha.

so,dengar la..

blaja arab2 sket.haha

best jugak dengar die bercerita..

bila die tanye pasal aurat perempuan kat mane..

i, yaya pun jawab la..

die gelak ok..

die cakap,

cari balik mane aurat perempuan..

so,

belum cukup betul la ape yg i belajar ni..

hahaha.

ok,babai.nak cari keje.

jobless is stil a job ok.

lol~

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

::a broken vase::

i woke up today,

dengan rasa ringan.

without the need to open up my facebook

and being worried.

nak main game pun dah kurang.

and further more,

in facebook,

i selalu keep in touch dengan nogha je.

hahahaha.

so,whats the point of having a facebook.

i read one of my friend's blog.

looking at how happy she is now.

i felt happy for her too.

because,

i think,

i am now,

starting to believe

the phrase daddy told me

5 years ago,

"there's always a light at the end of the tunnel"

yes.

i am sure..

i'm going to see the light.

i just have to wait..

and take the long walk,

before i manage to find it..

there's nothing impossible to a willing mind right..

yes..

i already has the frame.

and it's not so pretty

a bit broken.

dull.

i just now need to find the suitable picture.

it doesn't need to be perfect.

it's going to be hole here and there..

scratches all around..but

if i can feel the warmth,

and the comfort

the willingness to try,

the frame will be a home.

but as long as i'm happy..

i'll be more grateful..

well,

if i manage to find

my korean drama happy ending.

;D

lol.

i'm going to be very )(*&^%$#

but again,

i'll try to minimize it.

that's why i said,

i need a busy job.

the one that needs my attention 24/7

the one that doesn't give me space to think.

untuk sedap kan hati i,

i selalu ingat kata-kata pakcik lim

masa form 4.

time tue

first time buat lab kimia,

first task.

bila i terlupa nak panaskan magnesium bikarbonat

*kot..ke salah.hahahahaha*

dan tak boleh nak buang die dari tabung uji,

pak cik lim cakap.

"tue la..tak panas kan dulu."

"bodoh"

dan sebab "bodoh" itu,

i dapat A for kimia.

jadi,

i rasa berbaloi!!

thank you pakcik lim.

rindu nk belajar kimia dengan pakcik.

cita-cita i nak jadi chemist,

terkubur lah pakcik.

i pun tak tau i jadi ape sekarang.

bwahaha.

eh,

now,

rasa macam ada semangat.

kan.

my keffi is finally here ke???

dah balik pada i???????

terima kasih Tuhan.

kasi die stay lama-lama sikit.

keffi,

jalankan tugas awak ok.

ok,ok..

as selama ni i punya password blog

macam satu doa.

jadi i pun dah tukar.

dah.

tak payah berdoa untuk bende bukan-bukan.

hahahaha.

lepas ni dekat office pun semua kena tukar password.

hadoi.

banyak nak tukar.

takpe.

kasi potong semua!!!!!!!!!!!!!

;p
;]
;)
:p
;D

::promises::

bila ada orang usulkan

usul yang memang i tunggu-tunggu.

macam orang mengantuk disorong kan bantal

*lol*

bring it on.

:: good night all::

bila nak turun lagi berat eh..

syiok la kalau turun.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeee

;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

*bongek kan*

::i'm a heavy weight champs!!::

after deleting

all the unwanted cache,

and a bit of a disk clean up,

my browsing speed is better.

-hooray!-

::trying is a life long process::

yes.

trying is a life long process.

it will never stop.

i have always been an introvert

who is always afraid of a new challenge.

now,

ok,

since yesterday,

ok,

since last year.

6th of december 2009,

i have decided

that i need to try more.

i'm a chicken all this while.

*doing the chicken sound*

lol.

yeah,

always been a chicken.

until i reach the climax of my life

of being a nagnyaw.

hahahaha.

i need a big change.

total revamp.

so,

i started by being my self again,

with upgraded skills and so forth.

hahahahha.

now,

stil in the process.

i know,

it's going to be loooooooooooonnnngg.

but i don't want to give up.

not now.

not until i finally get what i dream of.

i have so many dreams to fulfill.

the dreams will always be replaceable,

but what matter,

is the objective of the dream itself.

the content or how or when,

is not going to matter much.

as long as it fulfill the requirements needed,

it can work out.

i will make it workout.

*i think so*

haha.

so,

the phase of revamping might take a long time,

might take my whole life time.

but it think,

this time,

i'm having a little progress.

starting with a bit lost of weight,

*lol*

it's not much,

but better.hahahahahahaha.

then,

the career-->oh well,this one is tough.hahahaha

and then,

i do a clean up on my documents in my lappy.

*hooray!!!at last!*

i'm always been a sentimental person,

who doesn't like to throw anything that

i think it'll be useful oneday(but never does)

bwahahaha.

so,

i start with deleting

my fyp project folder!

*hooray!!!bye bye you.*

then all the articles i downloaded,

i deleted the pictures that is not necessary anymore,

but still have a doubt to delete my collections of movies

and gossip girl series and avatar.hahahaha

*sayang..*

and with the facebook issue,

oh,

i think i want to delete it too..

but i have so many new friends i got to know

when i went to sg especially

and friends from workplace.

and chi!!!

*ok,ok,fb is an exception*

so,i choose to delete the unwanted contacts instead.

and ooh,

how can i delete fb,

it's one of the source to get to know other people

*hot hunky dude!!!ppfftt*

my workplace has so many cute dudes la dei.

but my heart jual mahal.

still having problem to fall in love..

nak yang memenuhi citarasa je.bluek!!

hahaha.

of course.

sejahat-jahat i,

at least i want a man yang boleh jadi imam

time sembahyang.

nak buat apa kahwin dengan orang yang same je rosak macam kau.

lepas kawin lagi teruk same2.

hahahaha.

my life need to has improvement ok.

as i adalah orang yang bukan penyabar.

sabar jugaklah tapi nipis.

Tuhan kasi i keje yang kena sabar,

berada dengan orang yang perlukan i bersabar.

ok,ok..

i dah la kurang sabar.

tapi takpe..

save the best for the last..

save the best..for the last.

lol.

so,

i think,

my goal at the moment will be

being a tiger!!roar.

stop being a chicken!!

upgrade to combo!!hahahahaha

i think,

i have taken a minor step..

so,

kena slow..slow..

takpe..

belajar meniarap dulu,

then merangkak,

then berjalan..

lepas tue baru boleh lari,

penat..

tahan teksi.

hahahaha.

i felt so good after i settle everything

one at a time.

though it took me so many years

to take a one tiny step..

tapi,

better late than never right.

there's always a one type of people

who will always think

that i'll be a chicken forever..

i'm so close to make my step..

but then,

had a cold feet.hahahha

ok,

ok,

so now,

need to prove to myself

that i can do this.

chayok chayok!!!!

like my mum said,

biar susah-susah masa muda,

da tua senang sikit..

hehehe.you're definitely right mum.

biar muda ni i sakit banyak pun tak apa.

muda kan.

kuat lagi.

*eche..telinga berdarah sikit nak nangis*

*lempang kang*

-tak mau,sakit-

0(&^*&^%E$

ok,

the first 3 months,

will be a pain in the ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*come one c.dah bertahun prektis!!!!!!!!!!!!bole!*

ok!!!!go!go!go!

next,

will be wardrobe change.

dah lame tak beli baju..

i think,

it's ok to be choosy.

because it's you who's going to live with it.

you are the one who are going to deal with it.

as long as it makes you happy,

don't care about what other people say.

i choose my happiness.

i choose to be real.

i want what i want.

though i know,

not all is achievable.

but at least,

i try to get it.

it's not about the result.

i haven't try much in my life.

now,

i'm trying!!!!!!!!!!!!

pray for me will ya :)

::a freaking tiring day!::

everyday,

as i have to go out early for work,

kena gerak extra awal.

everyday sangat demotivated.

phobia with the phones.

bila dengar "bm".."english"

-_-"

sebab asyik kena marah je.

like i'm the one who took all your money kan.

i don't like it when i get scolded for things

i didn't do.

dah la try tolong,

kena marah lagi.

ee..

da la i ni panas baran.

tunggu time je nak cakap the f word.

tapi sabar je..

maintain kool.

jadi,

sebab asyik menahan marah,

i get so grumpy,

demotivated,

dan stress.

you know when they say that

certain job are not meant for certain people,

ok,

i found one.

this job is ok,

tapi i yang tak fit into this job.

this job is for someone yang tahan sabar,

kind hearted.

hahahaha.

totally not for me.

by tomorrow,

i nk bagi surat resigned.

yeah.

walau kena bayar sebab breach of contract pun,

what to do la kan.

everyday,

i feel like crying

and traumatized if i have to answer calls.

and psst psst,

my parents don't know i'm going to resigned.

i rather face a person

directly when he/she scolded me,

and if the mistakes is by me,

i take the responsibility.

and after kena marah all day,

balik malam-malam,

drive jauh-jauh,

i thought,

is it worth it?

kalau kena bunuh masa balik tu

pun nobody knows.

and no fix weekend for me..

memang choosy kan.

what to do.

if i have to do something

just to be alive,

i want to love the job first

so at least,

niat nak pergi kerja tue

betul.

ahahaahahaha.

we have to be choosy right.

i can't do "just settle".

5 days was like 5 years.

i feel like killing myself every single minit.

salute to all who devoted their life for this job.

bagus lah korang.

suka tolong orang.

macam i,

memang tak suka tolong orang.

bwahahahaha.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

::illusion master::

if our mind and body

is like computer.

how great will that be.

don't you think so??

if we gained weight,

just reset everything.

or just change the particular part.

haha.

if the port seems to have problems,

you can always reset the port.

or just ask someone to fix it for you.

there's always a countless of solution.

if the mind and body is too slow,

we can always do a disk cleanup.

delete all the unwanted cache,histories,etc.

what a better life we'll have after that right.


;)
:)
:D
;P
:}
;]

Sunday, March 21, 2010

::is it me or the world has become so dull::

i'm bored.

ada keje pun bosan.

takde keje pun bosan.

and blogging pun macam kurang sikit.

kurang banyak kot.

hu....


layta~

::things i know by now:

things i know by now,

that should not be told to any soul.

oh yeah,

i learn a great deal.

and first of all,

"don't trust anybody"

secondly,

ignore everything,

and do your things

the way you do.

after all,

life is a one person battle.

do you get help?

no.

except from God.

oh well,

that's the law,isn't it.

~toodles.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

“I’m going to the Gatsby Deodorant Street Fair”.



mari pergi Gatsby Deodorant Street Fair!!

sebelum pergi,

i ngatkan.

jangan lupa mandi wangi-wangi,

syampoo rambut siap semua.

pakai baju lawa-lawa,

DAN!!

sediakan ketiak eh eh..

maaf atas bahasa kasar i,

"under arm"="bawah lengan"

sebersih mungkin.

sebab kita nak try best sangat ke Gatsby Deodorant ni?

ade bran??

kalau ada,mari..

Date: 17 April 2010
Time: 10 am – 5 pm
Venue: Front Foyer, Ground Floor, Berjaya Times Square, Kuala Lumpur

lepas ketiak wangi pakai Gastby,

anda BOLEH:-

1)test luck in lucky draw

2)ada so many cool gadgets up for grabs worth up to RM15,000!!!!

3)permainan yang seronok + teruja seperti Sumo Wrestling

(dalam air bag suits!),gladiator battles

(untuk lelaki dan para wanita menseksikan diri) dan banyak

lagi games macam kat funfair you!!!

for more info-->www.gatsby.com.my/streetfair

::the black sunday::

i name sunday,the black sunday.

sebab blue monday dah ambil.

sunday dapat black.

ok lah tu.

lame tak update blog.

ya,

itulah kalau broadband kena berebut dengan bapak,

dan adik-adik.

nasib mak tak heran dengan internet.

sebab mak lagi suka tengok tv sambil tidur.

*mama,jangan marah,i gurau je*

i ni pms ke hape.

muke memang macam nak kena sepak ok.

grr...

ingatkan i bayar hutang library eh.

nanti tak dapat nk dpt sijil.

bwahaha.

Friday, March 12, 2010

::chocomocococo::

semalam,

i disekolahkan oleh seorang

colleague i.

dia lagi tua dari most of us,

macam abang la gitu.

selalu buat-buat trasa

kitrg tak panggil dia abang.

hahahha.

die pun cerita lah

tentang kisah cinta nya yang

macam cerita hindustan.

memang kesian la..

dan nasihatkan kitorg,

jangan flirt2 around

bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada..

tapi kan..

i macam kurang setuju.

haha.

i tak suka nak labelkan

what i have now as

"bersyukur"

bersederhana tue mestilah kan.

entah.

lagi suka labelkan as

"enjoy the moment while it last"

hahaha.

ya la,

at the same time,

see things with open heart.

mr temanrapattapimesra said to me,

i always have doubt.

hahaha.guling-guling dgr..

maybe i'm so used of trusting

people dulu,

as time goes by,

i learn from my mistakes,

and trust nobody at all.

i don't easily

love anyone.

tapi sentiasa mencari

someone yang boleh

membuatkan

stomach ada butterfly,

kalau terserempak,

rasa goosebumps.

hahaha.

yang buat jantung kau berdegup kencang.

bwahahahahaha.

so far,

masih belum jumpa..

kalau ada,

masih belum jumpa yang betul2 buat

hati i dilanda tsunami.

ngee..

kadang-kadang,

macam nak tanye je tuhan.

"mane die eh."

belum lagi ke..

kena tunggu berapa lame??

like people always said,

save the best for the last.

macam my friend cakap.

jodoh ini adalah subjektif.

kau tak semestinya

kawin dengan soulmate kau.

tuhan akan bagi apa yang minta,

tapi bila,

tak tau lagi.

mungkin dekat syurga baru kau jumpa dia.

*kalau i masuk la kan.lol*

jadi,

dengan siapa je kau kawen,

kau redah je(my fren cakap)

life is not about love anymore eh.

and i guess,

love has become so cheap,

it can be represented by anything.

dan love adalah sesuatu yang common.

do you know,

love is whats left

when in love is not there anymore?

hahaha.

quoted from man and boy by tony parsons.

but i think,it's true though.

macam i,

i love people i love now..

but i'm not in love..

macam kau sayang orang tue,

tapi hati kau masih milik kau..

hati kau tiada pada sesiapa.

*belum lagi*

jadi,

disitu datang nya tanggungjawab.

hidup bukan berasaskan love actually.

ia berasaskan tanggungjawab.

kalau kau sayang orang tu,

tapi kau tiada rasa bertanggungjawab,

tidak jalan la jugak.

tapi kalau kau ada rasa tanggungjawab,

walau kau tak sayang orang tu,

things can work out.

so,we must remember,

love doesnt last.

it comes and go,

boleh jadi banyak,boleh jadi sikit,

boleh jadi tiada.

tapi responsibility,

adalah static.

tiada kurang,

tiada banyak.

memang ada selalu.

dan itu memang tak boleh hilang.

~toodles

::para para paramore!::

hari-hari pun mau nyanyi lagu paramore.

takda rasa bosan langsung.

lagi-lagi kalau

time pagi nak pegi ttdi,

da la jauh,

i da kluar awal pun jam lagi.

memang cibabon.

jam dari tol 50 sen tu,

until kerinchi link.

jadi,

bila tengah jam,

keluar lagu paramore,

memang layan lagu tu sampai nak pecah tingkap ah.

hahahaha.

cibai la.

jauh tue tak kisah lagi.

tapi tol memang macam tenuktapircipan.

tue la kan.

i nak tukar kerja la..

ee,

tapi jobstreet tak ble harap.

need to do everything manually je sekarang.

kalau tak,

memang takde chance.

uurgh.

nak siap-siap.

nak hang out sama nora and liz.

nak pegi matta fair actually.

saje tengok-tengok.

walau i tiada duit.

hehe.

nak tengok trip to cebu.

or bali.

krabi revisit pun layan.

tapi macam nak pegi phuket pulak.

dengan hurm..

tak tau lagi dengan siapa.

if la kan.if i can have one wish

yang boleh jadi kenyataan.

i nak..

hurm..

nak..

utt!!!!!

yeah,vj utt tu..

sangat awesome ok!!

kalau la boleh kawen dengan die..haih.

eh,eh,

malam tadi kan dapat beramah mesra bersama

gula-gula cotton sy.

hahahahahahaha.

haih..

i macam nak cubit je pipi die..

sebab comel.

ee,

macam nak jerit je dkt die,

u ni sangat comel ok.

u tau tak??

time u senyum dkt i,

buat i super cair..

i macam nak peluk je die ok!!!

sebab comel sangat.

eee,

macam nak jerit,

i suka kt u!!!!!!!!!!

tau tak!!!!

tapi,

i tak de la plak terfikir nak kawin dengan die.

hahahaha.

sebab i rasa macam pelik.

ok, dah dah.makin merapu plak.

~toodles

::the only exception::

SongLyrics.com
The Only Exception

red red redang!

i macam nak pack barang,

keluarkan semua duit bape sen yang ade lagi tu,

terus pergi redang.

best nye lah kan angan-angan.

Monday, March 8, 2010

::bring by boring brick::

i just got back from sg.

it was awesome!

paramore was totally super awesome!!

singpore view was super awesome too ok!!

it's a very fine city.

yeah fiiiinneee.

lol.

i...

hate to have laugh out so loud

haha.

because i knew,

something not good is going to pop out.

yeah.

i'm going to have "buddy" session tomorrow.

i mean today.

at 8.30am at ttdi

where i'm going to be paired with a senior,

and have to experience the real work.hahaha

and on wednesday,

i'm going to have mock call 3

*which should be today but i postponed it.lol*

then on thursday,

the real exam-->oja.

and i'm not prepared,

nothing.

and suddenly,

this.

i never wanted to feel this way.

and i never wanted it to be this way.

-_-"

hadoi.

sangat penat.

dan ya..

now i'm feeling like getting myself

a shovel,

and dig a very deep hole for my grave.

fullstop.

Friday, March 5, 2010

::good day!::

~my weekend gateway is finally here~

adios amigos!

::papadom?::

balik rumah,

tapau satay cucuk dekat down town,

dan tengok papadom.

boleh la..

tapi tak se best sex and the city the movie.

omg,

i tengok sex and the city gelak cam haram,

pastu nangis sebab sedih pulak,

pastu gelak balik.

okie dokie.

~toodles

Thursday, March 4, 2010

::hello friday::

hye friday.

i know you're cute,

but thursday made my day haywire.

so,sorry,

i'm not as pleased to see you.

all day..err..night long,

i've been doing/learning to write reports.

all kinds of reports.

somehow,

i envy those people

who have challenging jobs.

i hate i have so many free time for myself.

because,

i end up doing so many unnecessary things.

maybe i'm not keen on routine.

hehe.

i want to get so busy!!

i hope,

after this training is over,

i'm going to have tons of work

to do till i can't remember

it's time to go home.

or even misplace my phone.

*urgh,if i can!*

on the bright side,

i can't wait to have a short getaway this weekend.

and urghgh,,

this up coming months

is going to be crazy.

some of my friends

ask me to join them to go somewhere

this may,

i'm having a second thoughts.

oh yeah,

because i don't have the money ok.

and urgh.

on june,

my mum ask me to join her shopping trip

to bandung

with my aunt.

-_-"

and yeah,again,

i don't have the money,

if i use all my money,

how am i going to have a saving????

i have to pay for the return tics ok.

that's the down side.

huhu..

but again,

have to.

kalau tak nanti kena sumpah jadi senduk.

tak mau ah.

lol.

bila duit mau cukup mau pegi nz ni.

kan kan.

kenapa lah mahal sangat tambang.

-_-"

oh,

i miss redang.

i don't mind go for a vacation at redang alone.

aaa..

nampak pasir pantai je boleh pengsan-pengsan dah.

nak pegi tidurlah.

hari ni hati bunga-bunga.

hahahahahahahahahahha.

hopefully,

i get to see you in my dreams tonight.

*echeche*

dah jumpa sekali dalam mimpi.

and it was the sweetest dream i ever had!!!!!!!!!!!

omg,

teruja pulak i!

hahahaha.

ee,gedik2.

macam ada butterfly dalam perut.

hehe.

good night you..

sweet dreams.. :)

::nearly 2 months baby::

yeah,

dah nak masuk 2 bulan!!!!

jeah jeah jeah!!!

ok,ok,

before you guys start to think yang bukan-bukan

i'm not pregnant ok!!

walau i makan macam orang pregnant,

tapi bukan.

lol.

dah nearly 2 bulan kerja la!!!

so,

this makes only about another 10 months

before i'm eligible

to migrate!!!

waaa!!!!!

omg omg omg!!!

sukanya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tapi kan..

nak kerja apa ni kat sana.

hahaha.

i can imagine myself at the airport,

nangis sorang2,dengan backpack,

dan tak tau nak buat apa.

hahahaha.

omg,sounds lame kan.haha.

i was thinking..

and thinking and thinking..

boleh tak if i tak pakai phone lagi??

how's my life would be then..

hahahahaha

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

::welcome back thurs::

it's thursday!

yeah.

my day of the day.

why do i like thursday very much?

sebab,

esok friday,

friday means the nexy day is saturday.

friday night means free!!!!

hehehe.

if friday,

nanti teringat monday da keje.

ah.

terus rasa tidak bersemangat.

lol.

i had weird dreams again last night.

yeah.

what is wrong with me?

ok,

the dreams were not bad.

tapi weird.

lol.

minggu ni macam tak fokus je time keje.

minggu depan dah la sangat crucial!!

monday mock call 3,

tuesday -->"buddy"

wednesday OJA!!!!!!!!!

grr...

cepatnye.

da nak habis training da..

hopefully pass la..

-_-"

masa honeymoon da nak habis,

after this we'll be on our own,

dealing with the real world.

takut lupa la apa yang i da belajar.

ok,hari ni nak try fokus.

~jia you!!!

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

sudah terlambat::

i mimpi

i makan satay cucuk lah malam tadi.

siap ade scallop you.

mak ai.

sedapnye.

sebab lapar ke?

ok,

i m late to work.

masuk pukul 4.oopm ni.

plz,janganlah jam.

~toodles

Monday, March 1, 2010

Malaysia Airlines:Best Travel Moment Contest

Attention!!!

this is a serious message.

Malaysia Airlines is having a contest again!!!


jeahh!!! :D

so,this time,

you only need to upload your best moment pic,

and get your friends to vote for you!

it's so simple.

step 1#

*make sure you read the terms and condition first ok*

after filling in your particulars,

upload the pic you think is the best and can make you friends vote for you

*that's very important.remember!*

the uploaded pic will be like this
.
.
.

*this is me having fun with the monyets (that's what we are actually.lol)*

step #2

invite your friends via facebook or email and ask them to vote!

contest ends 12 march 2010!!hurry up!!



psst psst:don't forget to vote for me*wink wink*

::what i'm going to get myself?::

a shovel,

and i'm going to dig a deep hole.

lol.

oh no no no,

that was quoted from paramore's latest song.

hehehehehehehehe.

i'm so in love with that song since decode.

i can feel the song crawling under my skins.

scary eh?bwahaha.

i love paramore,mmuah mmuah!!

and and kelly clarkson too!!!

though today was not a very good start for me,

but when i listen to their songs,

i change totally!

from zero to hero!!

*echeche*

seriously,

when i'm not in the mood,

after listening to rock songs,

i'll be totally fine.

okie dokie..

~toodles!

::high 5?::

i have always tried my very best.

i always tried not to give up.

BUT but but...

hehe.

i pronounce you..

eh,

me me me!!

i pronounce myself,

I GIVE UP!!

yeah. high 5 low 5!!

what a life!

*bam*

so now,

i can sit back and relax.

and and and so many more!!!!

jeee...i loike!